by Elizabeth Postle, RN, HV, FWT
Here is a simple anticipatory grief definition:
We all live with a certain amount of anticipatory grief from an early age. Scary children’s stories and tales which include death start to let children know that one day we are all going to die. At first children take it in their stride and know that Humpty Dumpty couldn’t be put back together again, but don’t imagine it will happen to them or their family.
The initial reaction on hearing that a loved one is terminally ill is the same as for any bereavement. Shock, denial, pain, anger, tears. You can read more about the emotions of grief here.
But as time goes on, if you are caring for a loved one for months or years, you may not realise that you are grieving. Sadness, depression, irritability or anxiety, insomnia or exhaustion can all be signs or symptoms that you are grieving. We don't believe that there is a set pattern of anticipatory grief stages, as everyone is different, but you may experience any of the above feelings in any order. Grief comes in waves when you least expect it, or it can feel like being on a roller coaster of emotions.
Just being aware that you are going through a grieving process can help. Give yourself time to look after your own needs as well as those of your loved one. Read pages on this site about how to cope with grief and looking after your own health.
Many people use the time they have left to achieve ambitions left on hold, go on holiday, visit families abroad. Tick off a few things from the bucket list, things they’d never got round to doing. Often people realise that they haven’t time to waste and motivation sets in.
Planning happens. Then action. They want to leave good memories for family and friends.
Some may leave work and get all their affairs in order.
How many of us are given the opportunity to do this?
Instead many family members may die of a stroke or heart attack or accident with no opportunity to sort out their affairs and say their goodbyes. I wonder what we’d choose if given the chance?
Although it is certainly far from easy, perhaps we can look on this period of life as an opportunity to organise affairs, put things right with our loved ones and say those things we often put off saying.
Being able to say goodbye can be very comforting and special. It will be a painful time, but it can also be a loving and compassionate time.
Of course, just because you have coped with anticipatory grief, doesn't mean you won't also go through some of the emotions of grief after the death of your loved one. You will probably still suffer from shock and numbness. Perhaps you will be angry or jealous of those who still have their loved ones around. Read more about the emotions of grief here.
If you are grieving there are lots of pages on this site that can help you and hopefully give you some comfort. I have been helping people with grief for my whole 50 year nursing career and so I hope that my experience will help others in their time of need.
One of the saddest types of anticipatory grief is experienced by those who have a loved one with dementia or Alzheimer's in the family. Not only do they have to cope with the physical aspects of disease, but a terminal illness which takes away the personality of the sufferer.
Often a carer will be living with a person who has completely changed, and they are grieving for the person they love while they are still there. You can read about this in my page 'Alzheimer's Spouse Grief'
Caregivers often work so hard to look after themselves and their loved one that they are unaware that they are also grieving. They can be shocked when their loved one dies that their grief is so strong as they imagine that they had been anticipating it so it wouldn't be as much of a shock when it actually happens. Read more about Caregiver Grief here.
Here is an article for parents on a useful site called "Courageous Parents Network" for those with children who have a life-limiting illness:
Elizabeth Postle had a varied and fulfilling nursing career, culminating in running her own high dependency hospice. She is the author of this website. Read more about her here.
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