Lost Husband to suicide
I am 40 years old and have been with my husband for 14 years. We have 2 children and had an amazing life together filled with fun, travel & adventure - always spending time outdoors. This past January, my husband took his life by driving straight into a large oak tree near our home. He sent an email a few minutes before he did it.
The circumstances around his death are complicated. I thought everything was great between us up until a month before the accident. I found out he had placed hidden cameras in our home to watch me while I was home working during the day. He thought I was having an affair with a co-worker I communicated with on a regular basis that works across the country. I wasn't.
When I found the cameras, I told him he was sick and needed help and that I was leaving until he removed all the cameras & went to counseling. The next day he decided to end his life.
Since then, as I have been going through his things, I have found receipts for other cameras going back almost 9 years, when we purchased our home, cameras hidden in clocks, in my car...
I am angry, so angry. I am having trouble with other people talking about him. He was a good father and took care of his family. I thought we had a good relationship, but now I see that the reality was not what I thought it was.
I want to move out of my home. About an hour away into the country, nature brings me peace, it always has. My family and friends are telling me I am not thinking of my kids, that it is too soon and too much change for them. My daughter is six, and my son is 18.
My question is, how do I stay here and deal with my anger and suffocating grief. One minute I miss him, but then I get angry and that takes over. If I move am I not putting my kids needs first? I feel like if I get my head into a better place, I will be a better parent and we can start a new life in a new place. I am only planning on moving less than an hour away from my family. Just enough space to re-focus & reconnect with myself and children.
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